8 September.--I sat up all night with Lucy. The opiate worked
itself off towards dusk, and she waked naturally. She looked
a different being from what she had been before the operation.
Her spirits even were good, and she was full of a happy vivacity, but I
could see evidences of the absolute prostration which she had undergone.
When I told Mrs. Westenra that Dr. Van Helsing had directed
that I should sit up with her, she almost pooh-poohed the idea,
pointing out her daughter's renewed strength and excellent spirits.
I was firm, however, and made preparations for my long vigil.
When her maid had prepared her for the night I came in, having in
the meantime had supper, and took a seat by the bedside.
She did not in any way make objection, but looked at me gratefully whenever
I caught her eye. After a long spell she seemed sinking off to sleep,
but with an effort seemed to pull herself together and shook it off.
It was apparent that she did not want to sleep, so I tackled the
subject at once.
"You do not want to sleep?"
"No. I am afraid."
"Afraid to go to sleep! Why so? It is the boon we all crave for."
"Ah, not if you were like me, if sleep was to you a presage of horror!"
"A presage of horror! What on earth do you mean?"
"I don't know. Oh, I don't know. And that is what is so terrible.
All this weakness comes to me in sleep, until I dread the very thought."
"But, my dear girl, you may sleep tonight. I am here watching you,
and I can promise that nothing will happen."
"Ah, I can trust you!" she said.
I seized the opportunity, and said, "I promise that if I see
any evidence of bad dreams I will wake you at once."
"You will? Oh, will you really? How good you are to me.
Then I will sleep!" And almost at the word she gave a deep
sigh of relief, and sank back, asleep.
All night long I watched by her. She never stirred, but slept
on and on in a deep, tranquil, life-giving, health-giving sleep.
Her lips were slightly parted, and her breast rose and fell
with the regularity of a pendulum. There was a smile on her face,
and it was evident that no bad dreams had come to disturb
her peace of mind.
In the early morning her maid came, and I left her in her care and took myself
back home, for I was anxious about many things. I sent a short wire to Van
Helsing and to Arthur, telling them of the excellent result of the operation.
My own work, with its manifold arrears, took me all day to clear off.
It was dark when I was able to inquire about my zoophagous patient.
The report was good. He had been quite quiet for the past day and night.
A telegram came from Van Helsing at Amsterdam whilst I was at dinner,
suggesting that I should be at Hillingham tonight, as it might be well to be
at hand, and stating that he was leaving by the night mail and would join me
early in the morning.
9 September.--I was pretty tired and worn out when I got to Hillingham.
For two nights I had hardly had a wink of sleep, and my brain was
beginning to feel that numbness which marks cerebral exhaustion.
Lucy was up and in cheerful spirits. When she shook hands with me
she looked sharply in my face and said,
"No sitting up tonight for you. You are worn out.
I am quite well again. Indeed, I am, and if there is to be
any sitting up, it is I who will sit up with you."
I would not argue the point, but went and had my supper.
Lucy came with me, and, enlivened by her charming presence,
I made an excellent meal, and had a couple of glasses of the more
than excellent port. Then Lucy took me upstairs, and showed
me a room next her own, where a cozy fire was burning.
"Now," she said. "You must stay here. I shall leave this door open and my
door too. You can lie on the sofa for I know that nothing would induce any
of you doctors to go to bed whilst there is a patient above the horizon.
If I want anything I shall call out, and you can come to me at once."
I could not but acquiesce, for I was dog tired, and could
not have sat up had I tried. So, on her renewing her promise
to call me if she should want anything, I lay on the sofa,
and forgot all about everything.
LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY
9 September.--I feel so happy tonight. I have been so miserably weak,
that to be able to think and move about is like feeling
sunshine after a long spell of east wind out of a steel sky.
Somehow Arthur feels very, very close to me. I seem to feel
his presence warm about me. I suppose it is that sickness
and weakness are selfish things and turn our inner eyes and
sympathy on ourselves, whilst health and strength give love rein,
and in thought and feeling he can wander where he wills.
I know where my thoughts are. If only Arthur knew!
My dear, my dear, your ears must tingle as you sleep,
as mine do waking. Oh, the blissful rest of last night!
How I slept, with that dear, good Dr. Seward watching me.
And tonight I shall not fear to sleep, since he is close at hand
and within call. Thank everybody for being so good to me.
Thank God! Goodnight Arthur.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
10 September.--I was conscious of the Professor's hand on my head, and started
awake all in a second. That is one of the things that we learn in an asylum,
at any rate.
"And how is our patient?"
"Well, when I left her, or rather when she left me," I answered.
"Come, let us see," he said. And together we went into the room.
The blind was down, and I went over to raise it gently,
whilst Van Helsing stepped, with his soft, cat-like tread,
over to the bed.
As I raised the blind, and the morning sunlight flooded
the room, I heard the Professor's low hiss of inspiration,
and knowing its rarity, a deadly fear shot through my heart.
As I passed over he moved back, and his exclamation of horror,
"Gott in Himmel!" needed no enforcement from his agonized face.
He raised his hand and pointed to the bed, and his iron face
was drawn and ashen white. I felt my knees begin to tremble.
There on the bed, seemingly in a swoon, lay poor Lucy, more horribly
white and wan-looking than ever. Even the lips were white,
and the gums seemed to have shrunken back from the teeth,
as we sometimes see in a corpse after a prolonged illness.
Van Helsing raised his foot to stamp in anger, but the instinct
of his life and all the long years of habit stood to him,
and he put it down again softly.
"Quick!" he said. "Bring the brandy."
I flew to the dining room, and returned with the decanter.
He wetted the poor white lips with it, and together we rubbed
palm and wrist and heart. He felt her heart, and after a few
moments of agonizing suspense said,
"It is not too late. It beats, though but feebly. All our work
is undone. We must begin again. There is no young Arthur here now.
I have to call on you yourself this time, friend John." As he spoke,
he was dipping into his bag, and producing the instruments of transfusion.
I had taken off my coat and rolled up my shirt sleeve. There was
no possibility of an opiate just at present, and no need of one.
and so, without a moment's delay, we began the operation.
After a time, it did not seem a short time either, for the draining
away of one's blood, no matter how willingly it be given,
is a terrible feeling, Van Helsing held up a warning finger.
"Do not stir," he said. "But I fear that with growing strength
she may wake, and that would make danger, oh, so much danger.
But I shall precaution take. I shall give hypodermic
injection of morphia." He proceeded then, swiftly and deftly,
to carry out his intent.
The effect on Lucy was not bad, for the faint seemed to merge subtly into
the narcotic sleep. It was with a feeling of personal pride that I could
see a faint tinge of color steal back into the pallid cheeks and lips.
No man knows, till he experiences it, what it is to feel his own lifeblood
drawn away into the veins of the woman he loves.
The Professor watched me critically. "That will do,"
he said. "Already?" I remonstrated. "You took a great deal
more from Art." To which he smiled a sad sort of smile
as he replied,
"He is her lover, her fiance. You have work, much work to do for her
and for others, and the present will suffice.
When we stopped the operation, he attended to Lucy,
whilst I applied digital pressure to my own incision.
I laid down, while I waited his leisure to attend to me, for I
felt faint and a little sick. By and by he bound up my wound,
and sent me downstairs to get a glass of wine for myself.
As I was leaving the room, he came after me, and half whispered.
"Mind, nothing must be said of this. If our young lover
should turn up unexpected, as before, no word to him.
It would at once frighten him and enjealous him, too.
There must be none. So!"
When I came back he looked at me carefully, and then said,
"You are not much the worse. Go into the room, and lie on your sofa,
and rest awhile, then have much breakfast and come here to me."
I followed out his orders, for I knew how right and wise they were.
I had done my part, and now my next duty was to keep up my strength.
I felt very weak, and in the weakness lost something of the amazement at
what had occurred. I fell asleep on the sofa, however, wondering over and
over again how Lucy had made such a retrograde movement, and how she could
have been drained of so much blood with no sign any where to show for it.
I think I must have continued my wonder in my dreams, for, sleeping and
waking my thoughts always came back to the little punctures in her throat
and the ragged, exhausted appearance of their edges, tiny though they were.
Lucy slept well into the day, and when she woke she was fairly
well and strong, though not nearly so much so as the day before.
When Van Helsing had seen her, he went out for a walk,
leaving me in charge, with strict injunctions that I was not
to leave her for a moment. I could hear his voice in the hall,
asking the way to the nearest telegraph office.
Lucy chatted with me freely, and seemed quite unconscious that
anything had happened. I tried to keep her amused and interested.
When her mother came up to see her, she did not seem to notice
any change whatever, but said to me gratefully,
"We owe you so much, Dr. Seward, for all you have done, but you really must
now take care not to overwork yourself. You are looking pale yourself.
You want a wife to nurse and look after you a bit, that you do!"
As she spoke, Lucy turned crimson, though it was only momentarily, for her
poor wasted veins could not stand for long an unwonted drain to the head.
The reaction came in excessive pallor as she turned imploring eyes on me.
I smiled and nodded, and laid my finger on my lips. With a sigh,
she sank back amid her pillows.
Van Helsing returned in a couple of hours, and presently said to me.
"Now you go home, and eat much and drink enough. Make yourself strong.
I stay here tonight, and I shall sit up with little miss myself.
You and I must watch the case, and we must have none other to know.
I have grave reasons. No, do not ask the. Think what you will.
Do not fear to think even the most not-improbable. Goodnight."
In the hall two of the maids came to me, and asked if they
or either of them might not sit up with Miss Lucy.
They implored me to let them, and when I said it was Dr. Van
Helsing's wish that either he or I should sit up, they asked
me quite piteously to intercede with the‘foreign gentleman'. I
was much touched by their kindness. Perhaps it is because I am
weak at present, and perhaps because it was on Lucy's account,
that their devotion was manifested. For over and over
again have I seen similar instances of woman's kindness.
I got back here in time for a late dinner, went my rounds,
all well, and set this down whilst waiting for sleep.
It is coming.
11 September.--This afternoon I went over to Hillingham.
Found Van Helsing in excellent spirits, and Lucy much better.
Shortly after I had arrived, a big parcel from abroad came
for the Professor. He opened it with much impressment, assumed,
of course, and showed a great bundle of white flowers.
"These are for you, Miss Lucy," he said.
"For me? Oh, Dr. Van Helsing!"
"Yes, my dear, but not for you to play with. These are medicines."
Here Lucy made a wry face. "Nay, but they are not to take in a decoction
or in nauseous form, so you need not snub that so charming nose,
or I shall point out to my friend Arthur what woes he may have to
endure in seeing so much beauty that he so loves so much distort.
Aha, my pretty miss, that bring the so nice nose all straight again.
This is medicinal, but you do not know how. I put him in your window,
I make pretty wreath, and hang him round your neck, so you sleep well.
Oh, yes! They, like the lotus flower, make your trouble forgotten.
It smell so like the waters of Lethe, and of that fountain of youth
that the Conquistadores sought for in the Floridas, and find him
all too late."
Whilst he was speaking, Lucy had been examining the flowers and
smelling them. Now she threw them down saying, with half laughter,
and half disgust,
"Oh, Professor, I believe you are only putting up a joke on me.
Why, these flowers are only common garlic."
To my surprise, Van Helsing rose up and said with all his sternness,
his iron jaw set and his bushy eyebrows meeting,
"No trifling with me! I never jest! There is grim purpose
in what I do, and I warn you that you do not thwart me.
Take care, for the sake of others if not for your own."
Then seeing poor Lucy scared, as she might well be, he went
on more gently, "Oh, little miss, my dear, do not fear me.
I only do for your good, but there is much virtue to you in those
so common flowers. See, I place them myself in your room.
I make myself the wreath that you are to wear. But hush!
No telling to others that make so inquisitive questions.
We must obey, and silence is a part of obedience, and obedience
is to bring you strong and well into loving arms that wait for you.
Now sit still a while. Come with me, friend John, and you shall
help me deck the room with my garlic, which is all the war
from Haarlem, where my friend Vanderpool raise herb in his
glass houses all the year. I had to telegraph yesterday,
or they would not have been here."
We went into the room, taking the flowers with us.
The Professor's actions were certainly odd and not
to be found in any pharmacopeia that I ever heard of.
First he fastened up the windows and latched them securely.
Next, taking a handful of the flowers, he rubbed them all
over the sashes, as though to ensure that every whiff of air
that might get in would be laden with the garlic smell.
Then with the wisp he rubbed all over the jamb of the door,
above, below, and at each side, and round the fireplace
in the same way. It all seemed grotesque to me,
and presently I said, "Well, Professor, I know you always
have a reason for what you do, but this certainly puzzles me.
It is well we have no sceptic here, or he would say that you
were working some spell to keep out an evil spirit."
"Perhaps I am!" He answered quietly as he began to make the wreath
which Lucy was to wear round her neck.
We then waited whilst Lucy made her toilet for the night, and when she
was in bed he came and himself fixed the wreath of garlic round her neck.
The last words he said to her were,
"Take care you do not disturb it, and even if the room feel close,
do not tonight open the window or the door."
"I promise," said Lucy. "And thank you both a thousand times for all your
kindness to me! Oh, what have I done to be blessed with such friends?"
As we left the house in my fly, which was waiting, Van Helsing said,
"Tonight I can sleep in peace, and sleep I want, two nights of travel,
much reading in the day between, and much anxiety on the day to follow,
and a night to sit up, without to wink. Tomorrow in the morning
early you call for me, and we come together to see our pretty miss,
so much more strong for my ‘spell' which I have work. Ho, ho!"
He seemed so confident that I, remembering my own confidence two nights
before and with the baneful result, felt awe and vague terror.
It must have been my weakness that made me hesitate to tell it to my friend,
but I felt it all the more, like unshed tears.